Yeah, I know, it's still too early to be looking back. I mean, I barely even started after all.. But you know, i couldn't help but think about some things lately, things like "am I really ready to graduate?"
I know, it sounded so stupid, right? But i really wonde if i'm ever going to be able to.. you know, 'make it' in life.
I like teaching, i think i'm pretty good at it, but am i really ready to face the life of a teacher, you know? and the i keep thinking about seeling stuff lately... i don't know, i mean, it's actually much more... umm.. profitable? I've always wanted to write books... novels, i think, but i never actually got the time to actually get down to it.. maybe i won't be a teacher in the end after all?
...I don't know.
And you know, i can't help but wonder if i've learned enough to be going into "the real world"... It's not that i'm afraid of the challenges. It's more like I feel there's still more to learn, you know.. i'm actually afraid that once i plunge into the working world, i'll immediately turn old and boring.
Oh, hell, yeah, i know i'm already old and boring, but i'm trying to make a point here!
I just... i fell like i'm hesitating a lot nowadays... do i go on, or do i do something completely different? and would that make any difference?
I'm caught between wanting to grow up and wantinng to stay juvenile.
do i wise up or do I hang around?
i gotta make that choice soon..
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